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To awaken or not to awaken, that is the question, whether it is nobler to become totally responsible or to remain in the darkness forever is the sirens song. A note of caution and clarification is in order for all who are contemplating committing to a full awakening of their spirit. When and if you Get It, there is nothing you can do with it except pass it on to others. When and if one gets the Knowing a new peace and a whole new understanding of self, others, God/Creator and of one's whole purpose of existing usually occurs. If it sounds like there is no downside there isn't unless one refuses to relinquish one's ego and will in the process. If a person persists in attempting to control their unfoldment they will most likely experience more torment than they already had. Only by the complete surrendering and allowing the full knowing will one ever stop questioning and arguing the process. I will not attempt to tell anyone here how to go about the awakening process but only to relay my personal experiences of two occurrences. Mine are Christ related as my teacher and guide, as others may envision their own teachers or masters it is assumed that any individuals experience to be an exact parallel and one as valid as any other. To structure some semblance of realistic perspective to these events my religious background must be also disclosed. I began reading at a very early age and among some of my interests was the Bible, especially all the words in red print, I interpreted them as being very good concepts to live by. Coming from a home of good people who really didn't need any outside help in running their lives and myself being the curious person I am, I decided to explore this church thing somewhat. It will suffice to say that what was in The Book bore no resemblance to what was being served in the local places of worship. The Book spoke of Love, kindness, compassion and understanding while what was being Preached seemed to be filled with fear, judgement, shame, guilt, anger, hate and a never ending stream of obvious attempts at brain washing and mind control. I chose to follow what was written instead of what was being spoken. My general approach to life came very naturally and conformed to that of most good hearted right thinking individuals and was full enough for me. The supremely higher aspects seemed reserved only for those Chosen Ones from the past with no real examples currently existing in the twentieth century. The first experience was during a super lucid dream where I found myself standing next to a small running stream of water in a rocky place, a man appearing much as many have depicted as Christ who approached from the other side. In His presence I recognized Him and said that I was ready to go with him, with a glance behind me I saw the Earth clearly in the distance the size of a tennis ball at arms length and felt a deep regret at the thought of leaving the ones I cared for. The knowing that they also would be coming before long eased all apprehension and made my decision to leave now much easier. As soon as I turned back to step across the stream a tremendous cloud appeared and trailed off to infinity, from the cloud came the feeling of what we refer to as Love. As many others who have experienced this I also am at a complete loss attempting to describe its' intensity. The words were spoken, " I just wanted you to know it was here, you have work yet to do.". During an afternoon rest break while first working publicly with the Table, I laid down to relax a tired back. After about ten minutes I decided to get up and then lay back down again. I suddenly lapsed into the complete consciousness of another being, it is still virtually impossible to comprehend much less describe one's complete consciousness and mentality being set aside and replaced with that of another person. The beings consciousness that was experienced was that of the personage which is known and referred to as Jesus, complete in all the knowing, feelings and love attributed to him. During several minutes there was no trace of my own identity present only that of His. Leading into the experience was the single thought of wondering why my arms were hurting so bad and so long from some heavy construction six months before, as I laid back the thought, "No wonder they are hurting so bad I'm nailed to a cross.". At this instant is where the complete transition occurred, the knowing that death was near, the asking where my Father is now, the feeling of being abandoned and then feeling the Love connecting and beginning to ascend, during the ascension was where a slender thread unraveled pulling the Me back to this reality. There were several minutes of extreme physical convulsions that followed and about fifteen minutes grounding back to my own reality. The entire experience was as others must have attempted to describe as well as what Christ tried to describe what happened to him on the occasion where he became conscious of his creator and indeed that He and Him were indeed one in the same. Some of the gifts received from the experience was an intense heat within my spiritual center that was almost too much to bear at times, the ability to communicate with all things on many different levels, the ability to see beyond the ordinary abilities of human sight among many others. The one imperative that was very apparent, these newly acquired gifts were given for understanding and to be used only to help others. The masters also taught that it was the individuals choice as to whether to awaken or not. |
